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There are my specs
the ones I’ve been looking for
I threw them out my window ten years ago
and now they’re on my doorstep

so you put one and one together
and there will be better weather
and you know that it’s forever now that he has custody
with his son up on his shoulders they are a sight to behold
’cause the dad is twenty eight even though he looks seventeen
so you’ll never guess the woes that they have known
cause they don’t show
and in a couple years they’ve grown into a perfect family
I’m so proud my brother did so good with his kid
I just wish that I could live with the fishes I love in their anemone
but I’m a turtle it wont work I’ve gotta stay out in the current
with my house upon my back so I can hide inside of me
all together in the tank you always dreamed about escaping
when you finally make a break for it you deserve to be free
to be free
to be free
to be free

there are my spectacles
the ones I’ve been looking for
I threw them out my window ten years ago
and now they’re on my doorstep
that’s how it happened
the confusion at the store
the shark never knew his father
and the baby never knew his motherboard

My head is pounding I can’t stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
and kill everybody who’s in close proximity to the place I call my home
and they’ll make a moving made for tv movie for Life Time all about my life
that ends with an epitaph one that will make you laugh
that says “great mom okay wife”
and it’ll be funny to the people who know me
who know if my body’s not burned
my soul will spend an eternity in misery
tethered and bound to this earth
so I’m not a dick or a stick in the mud always ruining things for my friends
I mustn’t forget when I see the sun set that tomorrow it will rise again

so I tattoo instructions on my ass
that say “don’t ever put this body in a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the Puget Sound
I don’t ever want to be under ground”
oh no, oh no

I’m wearing size thirteen basketball shoes
and laugh at your fishnets
I’m freaked out and fucked up
and I’m standing alone in an alley with you
wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups
but instead I close my eyes
the needles are numbered so I’m writing you letters
and I cannot disguise the fact that I’m nervous when we are together
and so I fantasize
that the nights will get shorter and the days will get better
I feel a kick inside and decide
if this is a girl I’m naming her Heather
she’ll look just like you but her hair will be feathered
she’ll say how you died before you ever met her
her hair will be feathered

my head is pounding I can’t stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
there are plus and minuses to sinusitis
like sometimes I get to go home
but mostly it hurts so bad I think I’m dying
I just blew my nose and now I feel like crying
and the dreams that I have are all of my past lives
and the seizures would paralyze me in the night
and I wake up clutching my teddy bear tight
and I’m drooling and trying to turn on the light
all I can do is hold fast and sit tight
but what if they forget ’cause you know they just might

so I tattoo instructions on my ass
that say “don’t ever put this body in a casket
burn it and put the ashes in a basket
and throw them in the Puget Sound
I don’t ever want to be under ground”
oh no, oh no

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road, turn out the lights, get out and look up at the sky
And I do this to remind me that I’m really, really tiny
In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me

But it’s only really scary cause it makes me feel serene
In a way I never thought I’d be because I’ve never been
So grounded, and so humbled, and so one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant’s eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant’s eye

When I saw Geneviève I really liked it when she said
What she said about the giant and the lemmings on the cliff
She said ‘I like giants
Especially girl giants
Cause all girls feel too big sometimes
Regardless of their size’

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road and run and jump into the ocean in my clothes
And I’m smaller than a poppyseed inside a great big bowl
And the ocean is a giant that can swallow me whole

So I swim for all salvation and I swim to save my soul
But my soul is just a whisper trapped inside a tornado
So I flip to my back and I float and I sing
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

So I talked to Geneviève and almost cried when she said
That the giant on the cliff wished that she was dead
And the lemmings on the cliff wished that they were dead
So the giant told the lemmings why they ought to live instead

When she thought up all those reasons that they ought to live instead
It made her reconsider all the sad thoughts in her head
So thank you Geneviève, cause you take what is in your head
And you make things that are so beautiful and share them with your friends

We all become important when we realize our goal
Should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole
And yeah, rock and roll is fun, but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky

Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant’s eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant’s eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant’s eye
And I don’t wanna make her cry
Cause I like giants

I never wanted to be better than my friends
I just wanted to prove wrong the people in my head
the ones who told me I’d be better of dead
the ones who told me that I would never win

when I delivered newspapers they said I was too slow
when I was a barista they said I made lousy foam
when I worked in retail they said I was a slob
much too dumb for school and much too lazy for a job

so I rode my bike like lightning
and I made cappuccinos that would make the angels sing
took two showers a day and I dressed up like a princess
shook my fist in my own face and said I’ll show you who’s the best

I wrote the kinds of papers teachers hang up on their walls
I was employee of the month at seven different shopping malls
and one time playing football I pulled the tendons in my leg
to prove that I was tough I hopped on one foot
and finished up the game

I thought if I succeeded I’d be happy and they’d go away
but first thing in the morning I’d still wake up and I’d hear them say
“you’re fat, ugly, and stupid, you should really be ashamed
no one will ever like you you’re not good at anything”

and sometimes I’d rise to the challenge
but other times I’d feel so bad that I could not get out of bed
and on the days I stayed in bed I sang and sang and sang
about how crappy I felt no realizing how many other people would relate

now people send me emails that say thanks for saying the things they didn’t know how to say
and the people in my head still visit me sometimes
and they bring all of their friends but I don’t mind
I play my guitar like lightning
when I sing I like it when you sing too loud and clear
different voices different tones all sayin’ “yeah, we’re not alone”
I got good at feeling bad and that’s why I’m still here
I got good at feeling bad and that’s why I’m still here
I got good at feeling bad and that’s why I’m still here